nI have died inside, my heart is subdued nI have despoiled all I hold most true nWhat remains of me is but a shell nAn outer vision of an inner hell nI can never make this up to you nBut I will never stop trying to nNo matter how great the final cost nI can't yet believe that the fight is lost nnMea culpa nMea maxima culpa nForgive me, for I have sinned nnThere is nothing I can do or say nTo lift the weight of the guilt from me nNo thought or word is left untouched nEverything reminds me of my fall nNever more to stray from the righteous path nAnd to temptation in scorn to laugh nThis is my desire nMy only need nFor you to forgive this ill-thought deed nnMy spirits they are flagging nMy moral standards gone nPlunged into this darkness nIn turmoil thrown nShaken by the depth of my descent nIs it too late for a sinner to repent? nI have been blind but you have to see nThat we must walk together from this nether world nEven in this weakness my faith in you is strong nI believe you can look beyond this wrong nnMea culpa nMea maxima culpa nForgive me, for I have sinned nnThere is nothing I can do or say nTo lift the weight of the guilt from me nNo thought or word is left untouched nEverything reminds me of my fall nNever more to stray from the righteous path nAnd to temptation in scorn to laugh nThis is my desire nMy only need nFor you to forgive this ill-thought deed nnThe truth of what we were I have seen too late nTorn apart and cursed by my rising self-hate nIn this act most hateful I put us to the test nI will see the strength of your love confessed nNo more am I the servant of slavish lust nI feel stripped and flayed by my self-disgust nTo the raging furies I am laid bare nAnd in truth, about myself I do not care nnMea culpa nMea maxima culpa nForgive me, for I have sinned nnThere is nothing I can do or say nTo lift the weight of the guilt from me nNo thought or word is left untouched nEverything reminds me of my fall nNever more to stray from the righteous path nAnd to temptation in scorn to laugh nThis is my desire nMy only need nFor you to forgive this ill-thought deed nnAnd I never meant to hurt you nI never thought I could nIn this deceitful world nI wanted to be true nAnd I never meant to hurt you nI never thought I could nIn this deceitful world nI am also untrue n