You asked me what I want for my birthday nI guess it's coming up this Thursday nBut I can only think of one thing now nI wish I could show you how nnFor five years we shared everything nNow I don't care about anything nI've seen my own death nAnd I didn't do my best nnNow all I want is a bullet in my brain nSo that I can move on from this old city nAll I ask of you is to never be afraid nAnd to never beg for some old pity nnI know it's hard to take me seriously nIt's the only thing I think of fearlessly nI can't sugarcoat it nI'm just gonna have to load it nnAll I want is a bullet in my brain nSo that I can move on from this existence nAll I ask of you is to never be afraid nNever stop when you know you can go the distance nnDear Sara, do you ever lie awake nDo you hear my voice saying it's now or never nThe things you gave to me are in a special place nA place where I won't go until I'm gone forever nnEvery day now when I think I see your face nYou smile at me, saying that it's gonna be never nThat's OK now because when we're in a better place nWe can talk again, maybe this time it'll be forever