Staring down the barrel of another holiday.nForce fed a Christmas carrol, another time another place another way.nWhat child is this who, who laid to rest?nMary's love is sleeping.nWhat child is this who, who feels so blessed?nIt cannot keep from weeping.nnI should be tending to the horses who intend to cart my joy.nFrom now until forever, I'm just a lowly unstable boy.nI'm a failure on a journey but my strength is gathering.nIt's only fair that I'll make it there, yea I'm on my way to mattering.nnBut all the way, on the way, i couldn't contain my fear.nMy lips only look rosey cause my skin looks so white in here.nShred up my fingers on this bottle cap that won't twist off.nAching for the syrup that could cure me of this hacking cough.nnAsk me how i'm feeling and I'll say I'm ok.nThough my mind is wreathing can't think of anything better to say.nnIs that what you get for running a yellow light?nA fistful of regret and a fix that doesn't last.nI'm a super califragile piece of fucked up alla i need a spoon full of something fast.nnI should be tending to the horses who intend to cart my joy.nFrom now until forever, I'm just a lowly unstable boy.nI'm a failure on a journey but my strength is gathering.nIt's only fair that I'll make it there, yea I'm on my way to mattering.nnBut all the way, on the way, i couldn't contain my fear.nMy lips only look rosey cause my skin looks so white in here.nShred up my fingers on this bottle cap that won't twist off.nAching for the syrup that could cure me of this hacking cough.nnStupid fucking world of mine.nYou keep moving the fucking finish line.nYou trick me over here, you hide it over there.nYou start another game when you see me starting to care.nWell, I don't expect you to hear me say I'm gonna chew my way out of your lab rat cage someday.nnBut all the way, on the way, i couldn't contain my fear.nMy lips only look rosey cause my skin looks so white in here.nShred up my fingers on this bottle cap that won't twist off.nAching for the syrup that could cure me of this hacking cough.