Her scent still lingers on the pillow beside me, nThe emptiness inside is bringing itself up to the surface againnAnd in your absence grows a blue kind of sadness, nThe feeling of being alone is creeping up against me still.nnYour work tie hangs on the doorknob, nLike the ghost of your presence, nBlue eyes the morning brings locked to minenAnd in my arms i hold you close to my chest, nIn this beautiful madness I'm not afraid to let go, nBut I won't unless you ask me to.nnSo hold onto the fire that you came calling in with, nThe fire under the covers that we seem to've been born withnA mutual attraction to the forces of nature, nAnd bruised collarbones and skin under our Fingernails show just where we've been.nnMark your path with an x just west of my spine, nI'll swim with the fishes down by your tattoo line,nWe mix, we mingle, we cross, we entwine, nWe catalyze this flame with our bodies combined.nnYour hand in mine in the morning's light, nYou say something in your sleep but I can't quite hear your voicenAnd if I had a choice, I'd lay here all day long, nWith you beside me I wouldn't want to feel anything else.nnYour work tie still hangs on the doorknob, nPlaying keep away with the idea that you won't be back for a whilenAnd it's desolate, this space in my chest, nWhen I think of the time I'll be spending all by myself.nnSo I'll hold onto the line you've thrown across the way for me, nThe radio signal broadcast tonight,nA beacon for me to follow as I look to the sky, nScanning satellites, astronomizing my plight andnnI wonder sometimes, if the stars I was looking for nShine brighter when I'm not searching at allnBut the one I've found holds onto my heart nAnd holds onto my light like no other.nnYour nails in my back nAnd your teeth on my lips nAnd the sweat on the sheets beneath usnThe moonlight's riding in through the blinds nAnd the air conditioning chill will sweep us back undernYou're in my arms, nMy hands in your hair nAnd mouth against your neck, nTongue flickering,nYour spine arched beneath nAnd we're breathing heavy, nYou're breathing hot against my skin...nnSo you hold onto the baseball jersey, nThe cloverleaf, the good luck charms I'll let you keepnA memory, a keepsake, a positive reminder nThat it's only you I dream of when I'm asleepnnYou waved goodbye out of that parking garage nthrough the steel grated fence, nAnd as you drove away I looked to the sky and wondered nJust when and if I'd ever get to see you again.n