a cold cast thought...nshattered and numbni've got this system in my headnstandards and notionsnof my own deathnkill me... i've already killed myselfn(a thousand times)na devil speaks to disguise my eyesnso you cannot seenthe knowledge of unkindninflict selfish ways to undermind trustnstepped on only to be stepped uponnwishful thought to smooth outnhigh tempers in needna doll an image for wrath to unleash...nthe aggressornhelpless... help yourselfnstop being there for everyone elsenfeeding the fakentake their medicine to feel goodnfrustration to the point of angernno sympathy for your waynlying on the drugstore floornan arm injected mindfucknfor the weak and impossiblendamn the cause... fuck the reasonsnhate everyone... hate everythingnhate yourself for disrespectna martyr for your self-gainnbeginning to numb myselfnmurdering morals for powernrepeating the pastnin the form of consequencesninstagate a broken will to thinkntreason of feelings spread widenpreaching problems... you're the problemnlose your stable temperancenflake-out on situationsnanother taste of sinful indulgencentake-out on yourselfntake notice...nno sense of accomplishmentnstop making blamendon't want to rely on someone elsenstop pointing ones to shamenthe hands of time will strangle younunless you runnleft behind to crynabout what could have beenndemand trust and lied to earn itngrasp your actions before they react too fastncontrol... a tool that discipline maintainsnswim oceans of pain...nto drown in hatred