endless voicesnshattered thoughts that cloud my headnsleepless nights of agonynwretched and twitching in a pool of sweatnsearching for the words to saynbabble spills out of my mouthnstaring into spaceni didn't hear what you saidni wish i could explain what's wrong with menwhy can't i think straightni'm lost because i think too muchnabout...nmisery of lifenno esteem from prodding eyesnmy confidence mistakesnscared to sleep or stay awakenlifetimes pass in a blink of an eyeni am dumbfuckednall my pride suckedni fight to gain controlnof what the future holdsnbut i'm fucking lostnbecause i think too muchnabout miserynof life no esteem from prodding eyesnmy confidence mistakesnscared to sleep or stay awakenlifetimes pass in a blink of an eyeni am dumbfuckednall my pride suckednnails dig into my headntossing and turning in my bednbiting my lipsnblood stained mouthnneed something more to calm me downnwill i end up deadnor can i digest it all this shit i'm fednendured for so longni am surprised that i've made it this farnin my lifetimeni watch people waste their lives awaynit makes me sicknto think i could end up like themnbut i won't