i fear every day, every evening.nnhe calls her aloud from above.nncarefully watch for a reason,nnpainstaking devotion of love.nnsurrendered to self-preservationnnfrom others who care for themselves.nna blindness that touches perfection,nnbut faces like anything else.nnisolation, isolation, isolation.nnnnmother, i tried, please believe me.nni'm doing the best that i can.nni'm ashamed of the things i've been put through.nni'm ashamed of the person i am.nnisolation, isolation, isolation.nnnnbut if you could just see the beauty,nnthese things i could never describe.nnthis is my one consolation.nnthis is my one fucking prize.nnisolation, isolation, isolation, isolation, isolation.