It's in the way that I can't taste. nAnd how my skin doesn't seem to fit anymore. nI am infatuated. nI am completely seduced by misery. nOf my own design. nSaying goodbyes to the ground my feet have kissed. nnI've lost my focus. nI don't know why nI am even here. nnThe tighter I clench my fist. nThe more I lose my grip.