My every dream hangs in the air like black balloon,nand I just leave them hanging here to fill the room.nI move carefully, don't wanna brake them but it's hard.nnI wish to tell you how I slept through all my life,nwaiting for letters that will make me pack and leave.nI couldn't do this anyway but I'm too proud to admit it.nnAnd though it drives me insane I'll be ok,n'couse it's nobody's fault, it's just that I'm scared,nI'm still not quite there.nnI eat my everyday without a pinch of spice.nI keep my head down so I don't look at balloons.nI've got nothing to loose but what about my heart?nnThough it drives me insane I'll be ok,n'couse it's nobody's fault, it's just that I'm scared,nI'm still not quite there.nnAnd it all falls on my head again.nWell isn't that the best excuse?nnI'm mad at myself 'cause it's how I chose to live.nI'm mad but i just have no guts to choose again.nIt could all change in a blink of an eye,nbut that's the reason why it will never change.nnAnd though it drives me insane I'll be ok,n'couse it's nobody's fault, it's just that I'm scared,nI'm always so scared of flying.