I think I need to cultivate my angernI think I need to cultivate my screamnI try to make you shake, I try to make you pandernTo the parts of me suffocating underneathnI think I need to cultivate my humornSee I only focus on what’s in betweennMelancholy is my name, melancholy makes a joyful girl insanenThink I need to study how to be serenennOr I’m gonna just lose younI’m gonna just lose younI’m gonna just lose you nownnI think I need to cultivate my laughternI think I need to cultivate my lustnI think I need to concentrate on uglynOr I’m gonna try to be so pretty I will bustnnOr I’m gonna just lose younI’m gonna just lose younI’m gonna just lose you nownI’m gonna just lose younI’m gonna confuse younThe only way I know hownnIt isn’t fair that the only thing InKnow’s what I’ve been taughtnAnd it isn’t fair that the only thing InGo for’s what I’m notnAnd it isn’t fair that the only thing InNeed’s what I don’t havenAnd it cracks you up that I’m oh so sadnnShould be easy enough to find the passionnI’ve got plenty to be passionate aboutnI’m obsessed with you I’m depressed with me,nI’m undressing every ghost I seenI’m embittered by the way I’m burning outnnI’m gonna just lose itnI’m gonna just lose itnI’m gonna sell you my soulnI’m gonna go crazy, I’m gonna sing badlynI’m gonna concede controlnnI think I need to cultivate my anger, I only seem tonHave what’s in between insanity is what’s feeding me andnLoneliness promises to lead tonAnother resting place of lost and foundnSee how happy I can be when I’m pretending I’m not menThink I need to medicate my innermost girl-scout