I don't know whynI have to be alone tonightnWhen I know you're notnIt's not fairnnI don't know whynWhy I still believe in younAfter all the liesnWhy I still carennWhy'm I holding on to you?nWhy'm I holding on?nnCould it be because you were my first lovenBecause you told me things I always dreamed ofnAnd maybe how your hand fit perfectly in minenCould it be the way that we first metnHow you dropped your phone and I won't forgetnWhen I picked it up and looked into your eyesnAnd I knew you would be minennIt's been so longnStill I can't get over younI never like to hear the truthnOf what went wrongnnI'm feeling downnEach and every single nightnYet in my head I try to fightnThe truth that you're gonennWhy'm I holding on to you?nWhy'm I holding on?nnCould it be because you were my first lovenBecause you told me things I always dreamed ofnAnd maybe how your hand fit perfectly in minenCould it be the way that we first metnHow you dropped your phone and I won't forgetnWhen I picked it up and looked into your eyesnnAll my friendsnThey tell me I can't hold onto the pastnSure it was good but it's no morenSometimes some things don't lastnMaybe it was good back thennBut it's not good nownnCould it be because you were my first lovenBecause you told me things I always dreamed ofnAnd maybe how your hand fit perfectly in minennHow we talked on the phone till we fell asleepnYou told me all the time you needed menBut when I needed you mostnYou were gone out of my lifenHow I wish that you were minennCould it be that you were mine