You were awakened
I was never asleep
I was just drilling some wholes in my head that perpetually bled
You fed your senses
I made art of myself
I drew bear claws on my chest and third eyes on my head looking down
It was live, it was all live ammunition in the gun
And I meant it, every bullet, and I hope they all stung
Because that's what I deal with every time I lift up the back of my shirt
And I'll show you what you drew that night with a Swiss Army Knife
Saying it was only maps of constellations
Your hands were shaking
Mine were stiff as stones
They said, Grab a hold
We said, Fuck off, we'll find out way home
My blood was burning
Yours was spilling out
We said we'd fly to the ends of the earth just to find ourselves
And your heart, it was not there when I needed it the most
I was floating, it was grounded
Getting buried too deep to stay close
And I swore I'd dig it up someday
Build a fire just to keep it warm
Then we'll get off the ground and drink rain from the clouds
And go dance out in the storm
Because birds, we fly together
I feel tethered, de-feathered, and weathered
A push at its best would get me out my nest
Then I'll never come home
It was love
It was true love, not that shit sold from Hallmark, Hollywood, or Wal-Mart
I'm losing twelve years worth of soul mates
And its harder and realer than anything I've ever felt