staring at the wall atnnnothing, there is something i'mnntrying to say, to wipe clean thennenvy, it's been hard for me tonnfeel okay, as honest as honestnncan be, there is something innmight need, jealous of what innmight miss, i just can't feelnncomplete, lightened up to feelnnbetter, but the knot just gotnntighter with time, stern beyondnnthe point of faithful, agitationnnkept me in line, you told menneverything would be fine innnsome time, what about thennlittle white lies that grew, whennnyou deceived yourself too? butnnthe knot just got tighter, be-nncause trust loosened away.