I keep thinking nI see you nWhen I'm sleeping nI dream you nnMy head's as heavy nAs the weight of my body nYour silence nconfuses men nWhat I want nIs an explanation nWhat I need nIs to be released nBecause part of me nIs still holding on to you nBecause part of me nLikes to feel defeatn nSo what if this whole the one thing nIs really real nAnd I screwed it up nTo keep myself away nBecause somewhere inside me nI still believe nthat I don't deserve nTo be loved this wayn nWhat I want nIs an explanation nWhat I need nIs to be released nBecause part of me nIs still holding on to you nBecause part of me nLikes to feel defeat nnI keep thinking nI keep thinking nI keep thinking