i won't know the score when the sedative stainsnnnothing enthralled me beforennbut glimpses of love or disdain nnnnnnbut i don't wanna live forevernni'm not looking for reliefnni don't wanna live forevernnyou apprehension is what's bringing you peacennnnnni drug you into this messnnand now i push you awaynn3 years if varnished distressnnpolarize delight or dismaynnhabitual contempt, to animalistic lustnni could hardly wash it down by the slow, dauntless dusk