it's so damn hard to hold.nthis face of mine.nthe smiles an laughs,nsome psudohappyness.nand you hear it allnand yet it seems so unreal,nand you hear it allnand yet its never the same.nni cant keep going on like this,nthis has to end, i need a change.ni cant keep going out at night,nthis has to end, surrender...nnits so damn hard,nits never the same,nit seems to get worse,nas the days go on.nand i can not change,nwhat i have become,nand even with you,ni feel its too late...nni cant keep going on like this,nthis has to end, i need a change.ni cant keep going out every night,nthis has to end, just surrender...ni cant keep going on like this,nthis has to end, but i cant find a change.ni cant keep drinking my problems away,nthis has to end, ndrop the bottle,ndrop the bottle,ndrop the bottle,nsurrender...n