Aftermath, with hazy ocular I realize I am back, sheltered now. nIrrational paranoia swallows me. nnSuppress the delusion. My past gets mirrored when I'm there, na clandestine zone, a place I fear. Can't recollect these memories nas things I have partaken in reality. A ruined focus a shattered nview, I am transparent, cut and bruised. Answers nowhere to be nfound, what is this past I keep getting reminded of. nnDissonant, with tremblind hands I cover my eyes, na touch of sense denied. nnBound by suspense It's suddenly clear, I'll yield to the edge of the nleaf thin steel. Fixated state on the artery, in the city of death I'll nfind peace and it won't haunt me. Desperately cutting without nresponse, the blood keeps coagulate, refused by the reaper. nnWith fester disdain I stay, disharmonic signals, source unseen nA message I can't construe, a phantom cipher they speak. nnThis beacon I must find, it's alive rooted deep inside searching nfor its light. I shall retort, hidden answers, I'll burn them every nbridge just to stop clutching at every straw, I walk their stride of nidle, death lurks everywhere, nowhere in my reach, refuge ndepraved, solemn they await. nnIrregular beats pounding me harder for each breath I take. nnWith discern as I ponder, origin of the pulsating strokes nSeduced by my own heart's foul language, a light there never was. nnSolo: Karlsson nnFalling deeper, time stands still as I fall nStranded to taste the void. nnSolo: Karlssonn