Work days become work months but your friends are still jobless, talented but so broke, freaking out on coke, snorting a raw nostril snarkt! of fire and oh and red chapped skin sitting in bare apartment rooms in North Park shooting smack and screwing each other, unwashed, cumming into sad loins and bent-toothed mouths and asses. Bleeding into each other's bleeding holes, and bleeding together with shudder of Hep C tested at 5 p.m. at Planned Parenthood, though they thought it was something worse. They're cutting rough acne'd skin with green Heineken bottle shards and shaking with withdrawals, with D.T.s, with laughter because it's so absurd, because you can still laugh no matter how sad you are. nn nnplacing pills in each other's blued lips and packing cigarette packs KAK! against bare thighs, a tangle and curl of dark black hair and white bone leg like Auschwitz. nn nn19 years old, slipping into the Void.nn nnYour parents are getting older. You see it over the dinner table on weekend visits, more like hospital visits than family time. Your woman needing more than you've got. She's okay; what's your problem? The last thing you did happy was your last record and even that didn't last. Doesn't make sense anymore. What's the hassle? What's the use? You used to write and record but who wants to write and record when you're gonna die sooner than later anyway? The city has gone frozen and your ship has hit an iceberg.nn nnSongs of Prayer: Eat the barrel of your old shotgun, 410/.22 over and under Savage/Stevens your grandfather gave you when you were 10 and in love with the Vietnam war and guns and bein' a hero. Pull back the trigger and spackle yourself 'cross the wall, slump forward, your eyes stunned like a fish, the back of your head gone and hanging open like a surprised mouth. Do it before she gets home, no one will notice this time, no one will stop you this time. But god, you have options. Lie still, wine drunk in the bathtub and sink down low, your nose bubbling out lungs' last breath, too drunk to fight back. Run razors down wrists and bleed out alone and naked on the bathroom tiles, shaking in the cold of morning. Overdose. Hang yourself. Eat muffler smoke like Jackie did, drive your car off the cliffs at Black's Beach, glory and twisted metal wreck in white sand. Starve yourself. Eat pills 'til your stomach swells and swims like aquarium rocks and you fade 'til gone-eyed. nn nnBut you're a coward and you know that. You turn on the TV—M*A*S*H re-runs again—and sink into the couch.
Lyrics by Adam Gnade + The Confederate Yankees
Related Songs
Don't Cry (C'Est d'La Faute) - Edith Piaf
Quiet Life - Bonnie Pink
Quiet Life - Bonnie Pink
Breakfast in Bed - Shelby Lynne
Its been so long - Before I Go
Don't Cry - Kina Grannis
Don't Cry - Kina Grannis
Kathleen - David Gray
Kathleen (Live) - David Gray
Love Never Lies - Blue Rodeo
Love Never Dies - Blue Rodeo
Don't Think Twice, It's Alright...
Stay The Night - Status Quo
Weekend - Kenny Lattimore
Darling Superstar - Alquin
Don\u2019t Think Twice, It\u2019s Alright (bob Dyl...
Money Changes Everything - Hall & Oates
Money Changes Everything...
Call My Name - Avery Sunshine
Call My Name - AverySunshine
Eight Dollar Engagement Ring - Chase Coy
Hands in the Garden - Half Moon Run
What Really Matters - Catman Cohen
Pieces Don't Fit Anymore - James Morrison
Green Valley Serenade - Vienna Teng
Tonight Will Be Alright - Lio
Tonight Will Be Alright - Lionel Richie
It's Been So Long Darling - George Jones
It's Been So Long Darling - Glen Campbell
It's Been So Long Darling - Eddy Arnold
It's Been So Long Darling - Bill Anderson
It's Been So Long Darling - Ernest Tubb
It's Been So Long Darling - Elvis Presley
It's Been So Long Darling - Hank Snow
It's Been So Long Darling - Loretta Lynn
What's The Use To Love You - Faron Young
What's The Use To Love You - Faron Young
Monkey - Kurt Vile
Black & Blue - Lil Eddie
Shackles And Chains - Merle Haggard
Fallin' Down - Selena Gomez
No Use - Monster Squad
No Use - Safety in Numbers
Shackles and Chains - David Allan Coe
It Ain't No Use - Gregg Allman
I'm Waiting Just For You - Wanda Jackson
I'm Waiting Just For You - Wanda Jackson
Love Me, So I'll Know - Eddie Cochran
Love Me, So I'll Know - Eddie Cochran
My Darling - Places Like Florida
Shackles And Chains - Stonewall Jackson
Tasty Love - Freddie Jackson
Let Old Mother Nature Have Her Way - Carl Smith
Instant Martya - MIKA
Call Me Your Darling - Thea Gilmore
So Long - Helmet
Mellow Mood - G. Love
Love Has A Mind Of Its Own - Willie Nelson
Darlin - Dag Savage
Hard On Me - Gorgon City
I'm Waiting Just For You - Pat Boone
Daylight - Mandolin Orange
I Hope That I Get Old Before I Die...
Goodnight, My Darling - Cornmeal
Stand By Me - Pennywise
Instant Martyr - Mika
Breakfast in Bed - Pretenders
Darling - People Eating People
Same As Me - Lianne La Havas
Let Old Mother Nature Have Her Way - Faron Young
Couldn\'t Cause Me Harm - Orton Beth
Three Good Reasons - Dwight Yoakam
Respect Me - Scene 23
Sugar Water (Look At My Face) - Hollie Cook
Pearly - Previously Unreleased - Radiohead
Trouble Blues - Fats Domino
The Point of No Return - Andrew Lloyd Webber
(If There's) No Hope For Us - Arab Strap
Stand By Me - Hunter Hayes
Standy By Me - All Saints
It's Been So Long Darling - Glen Campbell
It's Been So Long Darlin' - Glen Campbell
DRUG - Duran Duran
It's Been So Long Darling - Ernest Tubb
Golden Child - Kelly Clarkson
It's Been So Long Darling - Loretta Lynn
Watch Out for Lucy - Eric Clapton
Stand By Me - Demis Roussos
When You Get To Heaven (I'll Be There)...
Ain't No Use - Moby Grape
All in My Mind - Maxine Brown
Shaking Heads - Foxes
Shaking Heads - Foxes
Forever Falling For You - Marie Hines
Wet Stones At Both My Sides - Viking Moses
It's Been So Long Darling - Hank Snow
Dance With Me Baby - Ben Rector
Manger - ApologetiX
Miss Myrtle - Albert Hammond Jr.
My Darlin Baby - Lil Wayne
My Darlin' Baby - Lil' Wayne
Long Walk Home - Bruce Springsteen
Get It Out of the Way - David Wilcox
Stand By Me - NOFX
Do I Cross Your Mind? - Dent May
Shackels And Chains - Arlo Guthrie
Finally - Kitty Wells
Stand by Me - Willy Deville
Stand By Me - Walker Brothers
Stand By Me - Neil Diamond
Bloodstains - Passenger (UK)
House Carpenter - Nickel Creek
No Night So Long - Dionne Warwick
No Night So Long - Warwick Dionne
Just Someone I Used To Know - Emmylou Harris
Kill the World - Motörhead
Kill the World - Motörhead
Orions Belt is so Out of Style...
Such A Long Time - Gloria Deluxe
Stand by Me - Otis Redding
Got It Good - Jem
Eric Clapton - Wonderful Tonight - Various Artists
Help Me [Live][#] - Johnny Winter
Does Anyone Love Me Now? - Blue Roses
So Soon - Bobby Bare
Candy Darling - Daniel Ash
Stand By Me [Single/Lp Version] [Version]...
Stand By Me - American Idol
Silo Song - Chris Pureka
Tandem Bike - Andrew Duhon
Stand by me - Led Zeppelin
Time\/Use the Man [Live] - Megadeth
Shackles and Chains - Arlo Guthrie
Don't Treat Me Like a Fool - Blue
So Long, So Long - Transit
So Long, So Long - Chumbawamba
So Long, So Long - Dashboard Confessional
U.G.L.Y. - Dawn
Gotta Go Solo - Patti LaBelle
Gotta Go Solo [Instrumental] - Patti LaBelle...
Gotta Go Solo [Extended Mix] - Ronald Isley...
All the Rage - Empire
Sunshine In Happyland - Elle Milano
Light In Your Eyes - Nick Carter
Stand by Me - Seal
The Wire - Justin Rutledge
Anywhere (Just Inside Your Arms)...
Stand By Me - Earl Grant
Bye Bye Baby - Janis Joplin
Bye, Bye Baby ( in album magic of love )...
Overwhelming Shapes - Evaline
Land's End - Patrick Wolf
Land's End - Patrick Wolf
The Sunset Sleeps - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Shackles and Chains [Take 11, Complete][Excerpt]...
Shackles and Chains [Take 11, Complete]...
Shackles and Chains [Take 6, False Start][Excerpt]...
Shackles and Chains [Take 7, False Start][Excerpt]...
Shackles and Chains [Take 8, Complete]...
Shackles and Chains [Take 9, False Start][Excerpt]...
Shackles And Chains - Marty Robbins
Stand By Me - September Mourning
Heaven Seemed So Near - IIIrd Tyme Out
Stand By Me - John Lennon
Stand By Me - David Archuleta
Stand By Me - Danny Gokey
Long, Long Day - Paul Simon
Corinna, Corinna - Ray Peterson
Monday Morning - Melanie Fiona
I Just Want It To Be Over - Keyshia Cole
Here Comes The Sun - Voodoo Glow Skulls
How Long - Calling All Cars
Stand By Me - David Hasselhoff
All Around Me - Savage Garden
Mind Right - Juvenile
Punk Rawk Show - John Jonethis
Punk Rawk Show - Mxpx
Stand By Me - Marvin Gaye
Chickenshit - Revolting Cocks
Love - Emo Side Project
Still in Love with You - Phil Lynott
I Could Get Used To This - Diane Schuur
Smile a Little Smile for Me - Various Artists
She Waits - Christy Carlson Romano
More - Marvin Gaye
National Anthem Of Nowhere - Apostle Of Hustle
Weighted Mind - Sierra Hull
Gone, Gone Blues - Townes Van Zandt
Barricade The Doors - Adair
My Love Won't Wait - Two Gallants
Who Is Gonna Love Me? - Dionne Warwick
Who Is Gonna Love Me - Dionne Warwick
Long Rocky Road - Johnny Horton
Who Feels It - Bunny Wailer
Never Say Goodbye - Hardwell
Game - Joey Galaxy
Say Its So - Mateo
Grow - Le Loup
Recovery - Frank Turner
Beta - Doll Factory