Walking, I watched before menInto the white wind, I breathe out a white sighnThe white body temperature floats up high into the skynI walk on top of the fallen leaves that have lost their colornnFar away, I heard the echoing voice of a birdnThe air began to freezenTime stopped as I began remembering...nTime stopped as my heart closed itself...nnYou're not here...nnSnow scatters atop my shut eyelidsnThe tears scatter and disappearnThe snow piled in my heartnEverything goes silentnThe light is purenAnd I think of only younnThe throbbing in my chest means that surely, I'm still breathingnThe sky I looked up at was somewhat far awaynMy body seems as if it's getting smaller and smaller... disappearingnYou, who I love so much....nI think of only you...nnMy eyesnOpen themselves once againnAnd I wipe away the tears... yet once againnA morning where you're not in it...nI wonder...nHow long will it be til I discover this to be ok?