why do you punish me wih everything i see and everything i am?nnwhy don't you fill the hole and take away the pain?nnwhy do i wait so quietly, wait so patiently, still my breath to die?nnwhy wont this ever end?nnand my guilty eyes have seen to much.nnrelax as my nightmares come true and i start to cry.nnall this fighting, all this heartache, never wondered why.nndreams don't come true and colors fade;nni'm always told too bad.nnpick me up to push me down and wake up in a sweat.nnwait.nnmuch calmer now and it seems so clear.nnwhy invest so much in life?nnwait.nnmy reason's thin, it happens again.;nni can't fight this anymore.nnshot.nni'm ripped again, i'm gripped again, i know i'm at fault.nnblame.nnmyself for everything i see.nnall my life i've never been, and all i've wanted were the simple things.nni don't need you anymore.nni never needed you anyway.nnn