my life so new,nyour eyes so rednyou said to me then, i was more than a friendnand your life i now held in my handnnwell time passed bynwe've grown apartnand though i adored you, i couldn't afford tonlet anyone into my heartni preferred to be left in the dark,nnas she shouted I just can't take any more of this!ni lifted my hand and i covered my face, nand i thought to myself i agreeni steadied my lip and i ordered her out nand her eyes told me what i had feared so long. nshe cried cause she'd been promisednsomething i couldn't accomplish.nthen my mind went backnto that night on the pathnni know i've failednmore than oncenyou thought i was somethingnwell something meant nothingnwhen you smiled with the gun in your mouthnyeah you smiled with the gun in your mouthnnthey all gave it, their best attemptsnkilled themselves just to figure out whynmy heart set up walls that their words couldn't breaknno matter how hard they might trynand i'm being seduced by the deepest abyssnnow that i hate myself more than you donnmy head's just above waternshed myself to keep from going underncause i'm still back, nat that night on the pathnnmy head's just above waternshed myself to keep from going underncause i'm still back, nat that night on the path