I found a picture of us in Canada. I hadn't realized how our faces havenchanged. Only we could know what that day was like, yet the picture hasnpassed through so many hands. I want to say 'that was the best day that Incan remember' because we were together in the way that a family should be.nnI want to make it last. I want to make it last all nightnnNow that the weather has leaked a little taste of spring, I live in my headnand I try to pretend that I never woke from last night's dream: the mansionnon the hill where we could be little girls and swing on the tire swing andnsing.nnDon't you see what I mean? I need a retreat. I'll vacation in mynimagination. There's nothing out here for me in the middle of February.nThere is only cold and grey, and useless short days that are telling us tonsleep- to hibernate. So I'll dream. I'll dream, until the first bloomingnpoppy.nnI want to make it last. I want to make it last all night. I want to make itnlast. I want to make it last all night.n