nSaddening nI imagined the whole ordeal nI imagined the noises nAnd the pain that I feel nThe landscape was far from nWhat I expected nBut my eyes are still black and my nSkin blood red. nnI did kill myself nNumerous times nAnd still I am dying nA death of my own design nBut this time i am surrounded nBy eyes full of tears nWeeping for the pain I've given nMany throughout the years. nnThis is my new hell nMy heartless deeds paid off. nnI've lost appreciation for love nThere is no God who could change that now nI've been gone for years and I'm not coming back. nnNo longer can I offer you nThe very thing that you want the most nI want to watch you cry as I walk away. nn'Cause the old heart nThat once stayed inside, nThe one that loved you nHas long since died. nnI no longer remember nThe passions of the world nI've spent a lifetime chasing nToward a heart-shaped void. nnNow in darkness I rest myself nAway from human efforts nBeneath a mask of contentedness nWhere I know that I am real.n