i've not been feeling well latelynnthat empty grinding deep inside my gutnnshivering cold sweats while i'm sleepingnnconfused, lost, and tired i've been thinking a lot]nn nnwalking over a dead worldnnsinking as i slide further innnlost in all the decaynnin all the crumbling texturesnnnnall is gone now, all is lost . . .nni become like nothing . . .nni fade away . . .nnlying cold and dying,nnnnan empty shadow cloaked in dusknnno warmth, no feeling, no sensation,nnno love, no god, no futurenni've become a corpsennnnwandering aimlessly through the streetsnnswallowed by the city lights ablaze around menngroping through the choking haze surroundingnnlost among this churning sea of strangersnnnn looking up now,nnfeeling emptynnthe barren skynnarching above menni feel so small--nnnot even presentnnleft behind . . .nnforgotton . . . nnnn all is dying, all receeding . . .nnmy world is slowly graying . . .nni fade away . . .nnlying cold and dying,nnbecoming nothing,nnan empty shadow cloaked in dusknnno warmth, no feelings, no sensation,nnno love, no god, no futurenni've become a corpsennnnnn[how are you doing today?nni apologize for being rather anti-social at your house the other daynni was extremely tirednnnot focusednnhowever, i have a question for you.nn(sometimes i feel the need to . . . )nni thought you might enjoy a little (un?)stimulating communicationnnwithout actually having to look me in the eye.nnalthough i do believe that you would be perfectly capable of doing thatnn(look me in the eye)nnyou probably would not want to.nn it's a rip-offnncommon, exausting, and depressingnnexpendablennconfused, lost, and tirednni have been thinking a lotnnnnfor me:nnstay away from all human beings as much as possiblenn(that is not working very well - but i try)nn(sometimes i feel the need to . . . )nndo not worry i won't call younni do not think either of us could handle that.nnby the way, i do like being here.nn (goodbye)nnnn-finish my thoughts-