I'm not blind but I can't seennot a friend or anythingnI don't know what's wrong with menI can't remember anythingnninstead of starsnI count the darkenessnnand the layers of feelings that I shednnI guess so farnI can't feel sharpnessnnonly dull and blunt in my headnnlate at night when i can't sleepnI just lay awake and dreamnof what could have beennand what should have beennif I could do it all againnnnup for days and that's alrightnI wish that I could lose my mindnmy brain is fried now and I can't hide hownI can't hide how I feel on the insidennnlate at night when i can't sleepnI just lay awake and dreamnof what could have beennand what should have beennif I could do it all againnnnand I know what I saidnand I guess I can't take it back nownnso I try to sleep in my own bednbut I can't remember how