In consciousness I can pretend that I shouldn't be dead, nso I lay awake in bed. nnThose nightmares tear me apart, nI can't wake without a heart... nif I wake up at all. nnIf I fall asleep tonight, I'll die. nbut I can't stay awake for my whole life. nIf I dream what I really believe, nthen there won't be anything left of me. nnIn my dreams I can't convince myself this world were in has a place for me, so I can't exist. nI watch you as I turn and shake, nthere's no body for when I wake... nif I wake up at all.