I had something to tell younSomething about me that I wanted to tell you 'cause I was scarednI remember all the good times we hadnAnd how much you carednAnd how I wouldn't risk it for the worldnnSo I held it innI pretended to be what you wantednI wanted to tell you but you made it clear nHow you felt, by things you saidnnSo up went the walls and I shut myself innInto the misery, the miserynI had no one to go to nI had no one else to go tonSo I buried my secret nice and deepnAnd tried not to hate myselfnnThanks a lotnnNow I'm older and I knownYou were the one who was supposed to show menI could be anything that I wanted to benBut oh not that, not who I really was, who I really amnnYou know that every time you said those things, it came back down on menIt would haunt me in my nightmares and when I was awakenAnd I know you didn't plan on thisnYou thought it was best for me, and you were wrongnAnd you know that I still love younBut at the same time, when I recall my suffering, I hate you for this one thing