i was driving up the northboundnit's so lonely here in texasnmiss the changing of the seasons blow you awaynnit's a cold and dark decembernfrost is nipping at my fingersnwhen distance takes its toll you pull fast awaynmy darling i knownnwhen morning shares its lightnthe snow has finally comenthis peace is not quitenand i am not homeni'm checking my list twicenand cursing at the coldncause i am not finenand this is not homenni have taken you for grantedni have taken more than i gaveni have taken all your love and thrown it awaynnbut if i cut through the silence and listen deepni can still hear you breathing softly in my sheetsnthere is safety in that sound a promise in each breathe nthat as long as i breathe i will love you to deathnnwhen morning shares its lightnthe snow has finally comenthis peace is not quitenand i am not homeni'm checking my list twicenand cursing at the coldncause i am not finenand this is not homennevery cell signals distressnmy mind on alert my muscles are so tensendigging deep to find what i neednyet stuck on the surface cause i'm afraid to leavenbitter winds push me below this christmas i follownlet's see where this hole goes