If you grew up with white boysnWho only look at black and Puerto Rican pornonCause they want something that their dad don't gotnThen you know where you're atnnMortaring your earholes shut in a rush with wet cokenIn a Starbucks bathroom with the door closednOn booze, I'm left in residue and confusednLike the first time you used soft waternDown on my luck, caught unawarenLike Houdini when the last fist strucknnIf I'm sinking and laughing at something sunken in, I amnnSucking dick for drink ticketsnAt the free bar at my cousin's bat mitzvahnCutting the punch line and it ain't no jokenDevoid of all hope, circus mirrors and pot smokenPicking fights on dyke nightnWith shirlies and lokes and snatching pursesnnDoing Elton on karaoke and forgetting all the versesnBlowing kisses to disinterested bitchesnPlaying lead lay in a bad way on BroadwaynSending sexy SMS's to my exes new man cause i cannOn the road trying to break an old vannEating pussy for new fangs, I am, what the hellnUsing Purell till my hands bleed and swellnMissing Mel at a Motel 6, I'm unwell, ifnnIf I'm sinking and laughing at something sunken in, I amnnIt feels exciting, touching your handwritingnGetting horny by reading it and repeating poor menIntently staring at the picture of your feet on the stickernAt the R. Crumb exhibit, I wonder who's sickernnJerking off in an art museum john till my dick hurtsnThe kind of shit I won't admit to my head shrinkernNot even in a whisper to my own little sisternI just act like a dick and talk shit when I'm with hernnAught six, I'll say the Friday before EasternWas not good, I cried to myself in the pissernAnd with you in the front row at the Silver Jews shownAnd you act like you didn't notice, my fear of the bearnAt Showbiz Pizza when I saw six was overwhelming and not dissimilar to thisnnIf I'm sinking and laughing at something sunken in, I amnnAt Jacob Han's on tour I wake upnHung over on a hardwood floornFrom a dream about how your dressnHangs off of your little breastsnI'd rather be dead than call this songnHow I lost your respect but god bless or get neglectednAnd I'll see you when the sun sets east, don't forget me