This is where the dreams dissolve, this is where illusions shatternIt’s been a long year of trying to stay afloatnAnd oh the constant struggle, my mind fights for reasonnMy heart fights for hope.nHave I spent any of this time alonenCause that’s what this was fornNo I’ve been hopping in and out of bednWith friends and loversnI was never one of those who could not be alonenBut now something has changednLove never finds you when you want it tonIt waits til you’ve stopped waitingnWill I have to spend this life alone?nWhere is my companion?nSo far I have been very blessednAm I too demanding?nOpen up the windows wide, let the cold air come innLet the snow come toonGive me something unfamiliar give me seething I can usenLet me find something newnAll these things I can’t figure out alonenDon’t matter with someonenMaybe I could learn to let it all gonAnd just have some fun.