i awake todaynit's december 10thnthe holidays crawl on her backnwith a last regretnso when you wake, my lovenare you ashamed that you live?nbottles strewn across the floorna valium on an oak headboardnand still... you livennit's december 10thnthe coffee house burns out the haze of a drunken fitnso when you speak my lovenare you depressed that you livenshades pulled down against sunnto lay as long as health allowsnntell me yoursnand i'll remember minena crushing hugnfor ruined girlsnwith mushroom clouds in mindnnit's december 10thna cigarette burns out a scar in a trembling handnso when you cry my lovenare you annoyed that you live?ncurled beneath the comforternto hear the traffic down belownstill you livennit's december 10thnanother ashtray filled beyond it's brimnso when you're raped, my lovendo you pray to be dead?na picture on a stove mantlena father holds his lone daughternntell me yoursnand i'll remember minena crushing hugnfor ruined girlsnwith mushroom clouds in mind