i went away to see some friends that i had madennback in brighter daysnnthey had not aged they just found a very cozy cagennand that was where they stayednnthe sunlight barely carved its way into the roomnnthe windows painted on the wallsnnand i found no answersnnno cures no cancersnnno path no brighter waynnnnuninvited guests in our heads best arrestednnquestioning our timennentertained to deathnnat best a peaceful unrestnnsleep with open eyesnni'll swim in hell and i will get to know it wellnnand all the birds will sing their song inside my cellnnto a couch-bound scarecrow with a desk-bound stare so densennblow out the candles nownnnnand when I stop to looknnthere's no more need for thoughts or booksnnjust a mouth and eyesnnthe dead connections fed the buzz and crackle in my headnnmemorize your lines