Just one more dance, embrace the last chancenForty days till the doc delivers the stern glancenNot in my hands, not like I plannedn20 cc’s unleashed on this mannThe colors of the reverse,nreversed for old time’s sakenA prism or a prison; a decision left to makenIt’s the gift and it’s the cursenFear the worst when the vessels burstnIn a limo or in a hearse, down by the churchnSix months left became six months laternA tattered passerby praying for a favornChoking on the smoke, the second hand is tickingnGot a head full of coke andnthere’s a small child kickingnIt’s not enough to be humble in anworld full of fingersnThe sound still lingers,nsleeping with a dead ringernLeast she’s still by my side; the knot stayed tiednDidn’t wanna make you cry, but inside….nnI’m so lonelynI’m sick so won’t you hold menThe teachers always told menBe careful what you don’t seenDon’t wanna bring you downnIt’s easier to drownnBut wait a second, no I never wanna hurt younnThe last time the past crossed my mindnI was passing thru a crowded roomnthat turned into a cemeterynStone faces planted in my headnI hate the words that were saidnI’m gonna fake it for the last timenI’m replaced by this body in my bednFade to red, they left me for deadnTake a guess; forget the rest in the shednBooks I read said dread a suicide with leadnHere’s an once of freedom, take itndown, it’s all the samenRemain bold and shameless, signal, change lanesnBack to the church, father please forgive my sinsnIt’s not my fault, release your talonsnSix gallons to the brimnAnd stop your screaming, it’s not over yetnThe best part’s still coming,nrunning circles round the roomnThe nurses, curses, going black,npulse pumping, chest thumpingnI’m running, I’m running, I’m running, I’m runningnnI’m so lonelynI’m sick so won’t you hold menThe teachers always told menBe careful what you don’t seenDon’t wanna bring you downnIt’s easier to drownnBut wait a second, no I never wanna hurt younIt grows slowlynThe sickness is unfoldingnNow everyone is scoldingnThese hands are not for holdingnI wanna leave this townnI wouldn’t make a soundnBut wait a second, no I never wanna hurt younnThe third time’s the charmnGuess it couldn’t harmnI’ve had enough of this charadenIt’s pitiful the way my mind replaysnWhat could’ve, should’ve, would’ve beennBut I can’t change a thingnWould I really even want tonIt all worked out so perfectlynHit 11, took a trip and went to heavennBrought back the key like EmerynThen gradually I faded from your memorynLike a Gemini who touched the skynI’m a bird; I’m an eagle on his perchnOne last trip to the churchnOh look, it’s an open casketnThere’s a smile on my facenSome flowers, some white lace,na vase, a black dressnWait a second, that’s you, you’re a messnIt wasn’t supposed to be like thisnThe pistol’s on the chestnI could’ve been the bestnBut when you’re dead, there’s nothing morenAnd there’s nothing lessnnI’m so lonelynI’m sick so won’t you hold menThe teachers always told menBe careful what you don’t seenDon’t wanna bring you downnIt’s easier to drownnBut wait a second, no I never wanna hurt younIt grows slowlynThe sickness is unfoldingnNow everyone is scoldingnThese hands are not for holdingnI wanna leave this townnI wouldn’t make a soundnBut wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you