I remember whennI'd come home latenI'd come home alonenWith the confidence from a chemicalnnNow I'm all cleaned upnI can fall asleep with my lights turned offnAnd my heart doesn't beat with any old help from this scenennI pick my battlesnI pick my fightsnHell, I picked out this shirt thatnnHangs on this body tonightnWith no idea how it looksnnIf I could take what I had and wrap it In yearsnWhat I wouldn't give for a little bit of confidence herennI'm up at 3AMnThinking about the bills, the debts, The art of my friendsnHow we live ain't free but it what we've done costs more than it shouldnnIn a basement off the waternUnder a bridge I can't see much farther pastnFar away from a citynA city I can't afford to live innnI close out most nights with a silent ride homenSometimes I follow numbersnnSometimes just the cardinalsnnI stand corrected here most timesnI stay awake past most bedtimesnWith pills that will dull the sharpest One of usnWhen you just need to sleep it offnRemember these stories from how We sinknOr swim with the currentnEvery new zip code brings a purposenWith the same bike to get me homenA winter that chills the kid in menThe times I share the confidencenWith all the wrong thingsnI don't suppose I choosenTo still stand or run fromnIt's never quite as far as I think sometimesnFrom addicts and lightweightsnIt's all the same now, isn't itnnYou're trying not to notice thatnnWe're too oldnToo old to care